Her face is so caked on.

The male species is one of the STUPIDEST forms of life I have ever come in contact with. That is the God's honest truth of it all.

You know, I really appreciate you using me for a 'one night stand' and then proceeding to not return calls. In one week, you'll call me and claim to have called me back.
I don't know who you think you are toying with people the way that you do and where you get off thinking that it is alright to be so insincere and treat people like they don't matter - but I want you to know that I have completely lost all previouse respect I had for you and I think you are an utterly pathetic person. You really need to grow up and take some steps in becoming a more honest person because your inability to communicate is astounding and your level of maturity definitely leaves something to be desired.
So I hope your happy with the image you've created for yourself throughout this entire situation (not only the way you've portrayed yourself to me but also every other person who knows what happened) because it's going to be hard to convince anyone that you are anything more then a spineless little boy who is manipulated by a coniving little girl. I sure can't wait to see you around and laugh at how akward you must feel knowing that you had to be a sleaze ball who's only defense mechanism is the silent treatment and some well planned lies, and knowing that I am totally okay with what's come of this because I didn't do anything wrong here and you are nothing. I've said my peace. I feel so much better. thanks 'buddy'; for being a prime example of the perfect piece of shit person that is decieving and can't be trusted. karma is going to have a field day on your lame ass.

If I start writing you a letter tonight
I'll be writing for hours
It doesn't seem like I can say anything
Unless it's everything.
If it could ever find its way to an envelope
It won't find its way to you
You're a million miles away.
It always seemed that way when
You weren't at arms length
There were some things that I wanted to tell you
And wanted to say
But I couldn't find you
And I couldn't find a way
So how in the world did everything go wrong?

I won't fall asleep tonight
As hard as I look
I won't find you in my arms
I was almost sure you were supposed to be there
I locked you inside of my chest
Two years ago
And I'm not letting you out.
I just thought that you should know.

All the things I thought were everything
I'm scared weren't anything.
Separation is such a relentless ache
The thoughts of you streaming
Each one more beautiful than the one before
And I'm asking myself
How could I've been better for you?

Listening for your voice
To break the silence that goes on forever
I'm not sure I told you enough
You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen
I'm sure if I look hard enough
I'll find you pressed against me in my arms,
Lips on your neck, You're voice
Promising me that you'll always love me

So things have gotten a bit...different as of the late.
I moved and found out who are my true friends. I made some new friends as well. Right now, I'm fixing all the bad blood between myself and others. Which is rad. I think knowing that everything is gonna be alright as long as we all know we were all in the wrong. <3
I'm looking at schools to attend. I think I've found where I'm going to go. It's an Aveda school in Philly. My friend Joe and I are going to move up there together. He's super sweet and very cool. We dated for like 3 days hahaha. But he's still one of my coolest male friends. I think we're going to have a lot of fun together. And I think school will pay off in the long run.
This summer, I turn 18 on August 2nd. I'm going to go have some ink work done...I'm crazy excited...I'll put up some pictures. I'm going to head out to CA in late August I hope. I want to visit some friends and see what it's like out there...Should be awesome.
I'm getting over the flu and feeling much better. I wish I still had everyones number! I bought a new phone...It's hot.
Alright babies...much love.
xs n os

I've been coughing my insides out.
I moved to Alabama for the past 3 months, then moved back here.
No idea why.
I'll be moving to NYC in late August unless I move to Cali. Who knows?
Hope all of you are alright.
Hit me up. I miss you guys. I know most of you have my number.
xs n os
Arika

iiiiiiiight. new name.

 

so_i_smile

add it please and thank you!!!!

       

               id hold his hand in the rain and sleep under his sheets.

                        youre hands didnt move, well neither did mine.

alek:

arika:

              i'll see him soon. just not soon enough for these hands of mine.

 

 

( shes nothing but a whore to the crowd of backstabbing liars )

I bought a new dress and changed my lipring to a stud.

Hey guysssssss...

Not much goin' down...

I'm moving to Alabama in late August, then to Flordia in Oct/Nov. and then my final stop, Cali. in Feb. I'm really excited about it all...I think from August  until Feb, I'm going to just kick back and have fun. Probably go on some tours with bands and work on my car. I think I deserve a few months off...Of course I'll be working and stuff but I think I'm just take it easy for the most part...

I think I'll get my monroe done on my birthday (August 2nd). I can't get it now because my boss Julie, said no.

I got a second job and quit. It was at BrewHaHa. They hate me now, which is fine because I don't know/like them anyway.Hehe =)

Heres my boo...we're gonna make babies:

he's my drug.

 

                                             .MATTHEW OWNS.

                             

so that totally fucked up but you get the point. now go listen to his band. xNeverxAgainx.

i've given up on having best friends. i consider most people to be mere acquaintances. when it comes to letting people in, i've become cautious. i'll be your friend in a heart beat but it takes a lot of work to be mine. i put my all into every relationship i have. i expect the same from you. it's easy to get a second...third....fourth chance from me.


i can't do my make up intensely hot, so i usually choose not to wear much or any. i'm not a bitch. i'm not tough. i don't like to argue. i'm fat. i was never a big fan of donnie darko. i think it's overrated. i am incredibly insecure with myself. often times to the point that i am self depreciating. i hate not having cash on me. my face isn't anything but horrid. i pay for myself. i can't for the life of me hardcore dance. sometimes i just like to be by myself. i don't do drugs. in fact, i hate them and most likely won't associate with you if you do them. i'm constantly trusting people i shouldn't. my feelings are easily hurt. i don't go to art school. i never had that kind of talent. i'm not skinny. i don't have amazing hair. i'll go all out for a friends band. i talk too much. i say things without thinking them through. i'm intensely shy in a large crowd of people. i'm overly emotional. i've broken someones heart. my ink isn't average. i listen to a wide range of music. i'm incredibly friendly. i can be on the verge of tears and probably still have a smile on my face. i will always be up for a soccer game. i'm kind of a dork. i'm addicted to coffee in the morning and tea at night. i laugh a lot. i read a minimum of one book a week. i can't let things end badly. i like going to shows. i think snuggling is fantastic. i enjoy going to school and learning..i take pictures of people that dislike having their picture taken. i love the rain. i give hugs to anyone. i've had my heart broken.

Welp...
Not much to say.
I hung out with LindsEY, Rick and Troy Saturday night-Sunday morning. That was...interesting...haha Deer.
Sunday was horrid. Stupid family dinners.
Monday sucked.
Tuesday sucked.
Today was okay.
Wonder what tomorrow holds?

SOOOOOO........

I wanna find myself a man. Any takers??????????!?????

Ya gotta be rad. Ya gotta have tattoos. Ya gotta enjoy me acting like a child at moments. Ya gotta be open to the fact that more 80% of my friends are guys and I have madeout with  about 60% of them. Ya can't tell me not to put up half-naked pictures of myself. Ya gotta be down with me posting that I got laid by you and I enjoyed it a whole ton. Ya gotta know I'll be in love with you within a month or so. Ya hafta hold my hand at shows. Ya gotta have cool hair. Ya gotta think the beach is awesome from sunset to sunrise. Ya gotta nap with me during mid-day. Ya gotta allow me to be as fat as I can be and not be grossed out. Ya gotta have nice friends. Ya shouldn't expect me to do anything I don't wanna. And ya've gotta be willing to stay with me.

I know a boy I want!!!!!!!!! I just gotta meet him first... :) hehe.

P.S

Shooter Jennings owns my ears. :) Heck yeah!

i'd like for you to kiss me and hold my hand.